Date: 2017-11-30 In this journal entry, I want to design an exciting life and a way of living I would follow if I didn’t give a fuck what society and other people thought about me. More or less, to just do whatever it is that I want to do and live an exciting life (according to my standards). This, however, doesn’t equate to playing games all days and being lazy. No, this is more about designing my life to be exciting and then follow it. Short disclaimer As always, when I write a journal my thoughts tend to jump around. I […]
Date: 2017-10-19(+20) This article or journal entry is a bit of an experiment. Maybe you will like it; maybe you will not. Just let me know afterward in the comments 🙂 I tend to avoid writing my journal entries on my blog. Partly because I’ve been writing in my physical journal, and partly because I’ve written those in Swedish. Today, I feel a bit different. I want to share my struggles, and I want to write about them on my computer. If this will end up as a journal entry on my computer never to see the light or if I […]
A couple of weeks ago I saw a video with Tony Robbins talking Raising Your Standards to increase the quality of life or improve upon yourself—you always meet your standards. Put in another way you always do your musts, but seldom your shoulds. As an example Tony mentions that some people have it as an absolute must to always pay their bills. They always find a way to pay their bills, even though they might be broke. Others have it as an must that they pay their bills most of the time, and so they pay their bills most of the time.
Currently I’m at a place where I want to improve myself, but I lack the energy to do so. I honestly find it really hard to get up early in the morning, work and exercise. At the same time I really want to change right now, but at the same time I’d rather change tomorrow. From experience this state doesn’t last forever, but I don’t want to wait for my motivation to come as I really want to change myself right now. This is also the reason I’m writing a blog about it, because I know that writing and planning to get better usually increases my motivation.
As the semester grows closer to its end I feel like I lack structure on how my days should be structured. In the previous article I figured out and decided what I wanted to do each day, but not how the days should be structured.
In this post I will try to figure out 1) why I want to work; 2) Why do I want to work in a certain field; 3) What fields?; 4) What do I want to work with in this field?; 5) Why would I want that; 6) How I want to work; 7) Why do I want to work like that; 8) What freedoms do I want to have, i.e. what should I be able to do in the future?
Almost a year ago I wrote Sharing Your Fears where I listed some of my fears. It was meant to be a reminder for me to actually face my fears. Truth be told I haven’t really faced my fears since then. I’ve been living too comfortable, I haven’t felt the need to face many fears, sure I’ve wanted it, but I’ve had a too good life—i.e. I haven’t been frustrated enough by my fears and still aren’t but I’m frustrated about something else, or maybe not frustrated. I haven’t really challenged myself in the past year, I have been challenged by other experiences but I haven’t challenged myself.
How often do you share your fears? Quite recently (February and March) I only shared a few of my fears to a partner. I thought that if I’d share my inner-most fears they would certainly come true, which in itself is a fear now that I think of it. A fear I had was telling another person I might had developed some feelings for them, I say might because I was unsure since it was a weird and not recognizable feeling. I feared that if I shared this with them they wouldn’t want to hang around with me any longer. The previous […]
So I have started blogging again on a new blog as I felt extremely motivated to talk about my desires. I’m not sure what the content for this blog will be. Maybe a personal development blog with my practices and experiences rather than giving tips; or I it might be more of a blog where I talk about issues, thoughts, and my view of life. I started blogging again because I had an inspiration spike today and asked myself “what would I love to do right now?” and I felt an urge to write something. I didn’t know what form the […]